Friday, August 21, 2009

Missing My Son

So today, I am definitely missing Eddy. Not that I don't always miss Eddy-but today I seem to feel it deeper somehow. For those of you that don't know, Eddy is in the Army & currently stationed at Ft. Eustis, Virginia. He graduated from basic training at Ft. Jackson, SC in July, and is now doing his A.I.T. (Advanced Individual Training). This is where they teach him to work on the Blackhawk helicopters. His class starts at 3 in the afternoon & goes to 1 a.m. 5 days a week. He was very worried that the written part of class would be difficult for him. He's a hands on kind of guy, and very mechanically inclined, but in high school, his grades were horrendous! He HATED homework & taking tests. I am happy to report that his grade in class is a 94! Turns out, if Eddy is INTERESTED in what it is he's studying, he's actually pretty intelligent! He's one of the top in his class & we couldn't be more proud of him. That's not to say that we actually encouraged him to join the Army. Oh nooooo. He does not come from a "military family". Other than cousins, there isn't anyone in our family in the military. When he came home & announced he was joining the Army, David & I both FREAKED OUT! We thought he was c.r.a.z.y. and told him so every chance we got. We told him NO (as if our 21 year old married son was asking for our permission), we begged, threatened, cried, screamed, even tried to bribe him out of making what we thought (at the time) was the worst decision of his life. This would not just effect him we told him, it would effect everyone who loves him, especially Dez, his wife. Nothing we said would deter him though, and by the end of March he'd signed his name on the dotted line. At this point, there was nothing left for us to do but give him our blessings & support. (Begrudgingly I must say). Since then, much has changed in our lives....let's see, first & the MOST important, they have found out they're expecting a BABY! Hunter Lee should be arriving sometime in January. Her due date is January 3rd, but we all hope he'll hold off just one little bitty day. How exciting would it be if he was born on mine & Eddy's birthday? Three generations of January 4th. After Desiree found out she was pregnant, she asked us if she could come live with us while Eddy is away at training. I know she misses him more than even ME! And can you imagine being pregnant with your very first child & your husband being gone? So of course, we welcomed her with open arms. We also had a death in the family a couple weeks ago, and they let Eddy come home for the funeral. Guess what? The day after was the appointment for the ultrasound to find out if it was a boy or a girl & Eddy got to go! Isn't God awesome? To take something sad, like a death, and still let something good & wonderful come from it too? I think it finally sank in that he was going to be a daddy when he saw his son wiggling around on the monitor. They went out & bought baby clothes as soon as they left the doctors office.
Anyway, my baby is growing up. He is different now. So much more serious, responsible, mature. And aren't those all things you wish for your children? Of course. It just that it's all happened so fast. And sometimes-just sometimes, I wish for those days when I was the center of his life. When his happiness depended on whether or not I made him pancakes for breakfast & if we could go to the park later that day.

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