She said "yes"......

She said "Yes"!!!

Emergency Surgery, A Proposal & A Wedding

Hey there blog - I bet you thought I've forgotten you! Not true. Life has once again gotten in the way. There's so much to say (and just a little time since I'm posting from work).
Eddy had to have emergency surgery and have his appendix removed. It was very scary, he's never had surgery before. And if you remember, we weren't on the best terms when it all happened. Desiree actually showed up at David's work Thurs night at about midnight on the 3rd of this month. She said Eddy was in the hospital! David called & woke me up & scared me to death! Brittni & I met David at the hospital, and the next couple days were spent running back & forth. I actually spent Friday night with him by myself since Hunter man got kicked out of there.
Speaking of that precious baby...HE IS WALKING! And I was so afraid he had forgotten me, but when Des brought him in the hospital room, he looked around at everybody, locked eyes with me, smiled the biggest smile & WALKED OVER TO ME & INTO MY ARMS! I couldn't help but cry! That night he got to see his Dapa (which is what he had started calling David). Again, that little boy hadn't forgotten those he loves & who loves him. Long story short, Eddy is fine. It could have killed him if they hadn't removed his appendix, and I won't even go into what that would have done to me. But we are talking again which is wonderful. I just have to learn to let go & let God. And let my children live their lives & be adults.
Next....Jeramiah asked David "for Brittni's hand". And, he did it in front of me. David pulled a James Stewart on him, asked him if he loved her, if he liked her, if he would take care of her. And of course, before he gave his permission, he told him if he ever laid a hand on her or hurt her, he would have to answer to him!
Now - now ....we have a wedding to plan. Brittni & I spent last Sunday afternoon at David's Bridal, and she found THE DRESS! I have tons of pictures on my phone, but I think I want to wait for the real pictures from the wedding. We finally got the place locked down, it's at West Ridge Baptist Church in Fayetteville. The same pastor that married David & I, Brenda & Ben, and Eddy & Desiree has said he'd be honored to marry my daughter. That's a big deal to me. Plus, she's getting married in the church where David & I attended when we were teenagers! With the help of her Nee Nee Brenda, her Aunt Tina...well, lots of her family, it's going to be BEAUTIFUL! And although we don't have a lot of money, I think between us all, we can pull off her princess wedding she's always dreamed of!
Work is still the same, chaos. Every day. I'm just trying to hang in there. And I couldn't without David's love & support. He lets me vent & worry to him, and listens & offers encouragement that makes it bearable. This too shall pass...this too shall pass....
Til next time - me

Meet The Pros

So I totally forgot to blog about going to Meet The Pro's Monday night! It's a banquet that's put on by First Baptist Church in Bentonville. The FLW tour started here yesterday, but before the tournament starts there's practice & a lot of venues that the professional fisherman do.
In the past MTP's night has been for "men & boys only" but this year, our invitation said bring the whole family. So David & I picked up our tickets at Hook Line & Sinker Monday at lunch.
I was so excited to finally see what all the fuss was about. The main hook is that at the end of it, they give away a brand new bassboat! Needless to say, we didn't win the bassboat, or that would've been the title to this post-ha! But we did have a great time, got a lot of fun stuff from the vendors (like fishing lures stuff), and now....it's time to get the bass boat ready for summer! Til next time....me

Not Much Here

I haven't blogged in a while, because well, there's just not much to blog about. We've fallen into our routine here at home. The weather has been just beautiful, so on the nights David doesn't have to go to work, we've ate dinner then taken the dogs out & walked around our neighborhood. I learned something too...that if I just take the time to change into my Nike tennis shoes, me knees don't hurt me nearly so bad. You'd think that would be common sense, but hey, what can I say? I really enjoy it too. It gets us out of the house & gets us and Boogie and Bam some much needed exercise.
I've gotten hooked on American Idol again this year. David is so sweet to watch it with me. I don't think he cares at all about it, but he suffers through it for me.
Work is about the same. They haven't let anyone else go in the past couple of weeks, which is good. I'm just not sure what we're going to sell though, once April comes, and we finish off what we are doing now. My game plan is to just sell as much as I can between now & then, try to catch up on what we can, then we'll see what happens. Whatever God brings us to...he will bring us through (or something like that!)
Well, I've gotta head off to work. I do have something else to blog about...but I think I'll save that until I can post a picture with it - so....til next time.....me

It's Been A Long Week

It's been a long day/week. I miss David tonight. Work has been HELL. I had some problems with this new thing we've been selling on Friday. Big problems. Got the company in trouble with the new account. Got myself in trouble. I can say in all honesty it wasn't my fault. Too many people are working on this thing. We're all doing what we're told to do. But it changes, every day...no every hour. Sometimes more. I was SO glad it was Friday and I have the weekend to re-group, re-charge.
Last night my friend Sherry came over. And we stayed up until 4:30 this morning talking. About everything. Her boyfriend troubles, my troubles, our work troubles. It was nice. Just to hang out & vent. And solve the world's problems. Even Brittni got in on it for an hour or two.
Speaking of Brittni, she did the sweetest thing last night. She brought me flowers. Just because. Just because she knows I'm having a tough time right now. Just because she loves me no matter what. It was really really nice.
Since I went to bed so late, or early...I slept all day with David. Until I remembered if I didn't get up & go to the grocery store before he left for work, I wouldn't be able to. My original plan for tonight was to run to the store & pick up a few groceries, go out & visit my grandma & Aunt Bev for awhile, then stop back by Walmart to pick up a few things & buy a couple pairs of jeans. However, in all my planning, I seemed to have forgotten that we only have one running vehicle. (We gave Brittni the Mitsubishi - David said it'd be cheaper on us in the long run, just to give it to her & let her insure & tag it). And, I don't want to take off in the blazer, it break down, and me have no one to come get me. So I made a mad dash to the grocery store & spent way too much money as usual. I also dropped the entire carton of eggs in the driveway, broke all but one, and now need to go back & get more eggs!
After David left tonight I got to feeling pretty down & sorry for myself, so to beat that, I decided to take it out on the house. All the laundry is done & put up. Carpets are all vacuumed. I even tackled Hunter's room (my spare room) and got it all cleaned up & back to normal. I won't lie & say that didn't about do me in, but it's done, and I'm still alive. David called earlier to check on me, and just made me remember how much I hate that he works nights - especially on the weekends. The up side is that this is his "Friday", it's his last night, so we have all day tomorrow together. We need to find something to go do to get us out of this house for awhile. It's supposed to be 70 tomorrow, so who knows, maybe we'll get the bass boat out & go to the lake.
Anyway, it's late, I'm tired and ready for bed. So...til next time - me

The Sky is Falling

Or at least my sky is falling. Where do I begin? Maybe I should just start with what's on my heart & go from there. We had a "falling out" with the kids. The oldest. It was coming. It had been coming for a while. The phrase "you pay for your raising" has never hit home harder. I look back now on all the things I put my parents through, and all the things David put his parents through, what we both put them through and think...wow-I am SO sorry, and I long to be able to go back & "undo" so many things from our past. As usual, I don't want to go into any great detail here, I am a fairly private person when it comes to my little family. I do however want to say that I'm angry, and more important, my heart hurts right now. I miss Hunter already, and know that only time will help this heal. This, like everything, I must "Give to God". I struggle with that, always. I love my children more than words can say, too much really. I don't want them to struggle or have it hard. I want to help them, and I can't anymore. Not financially, and apparently, not emotionally. I have to let them grow up. On their own. I have to let them live their life. I just wish it was easier.


Number Two on my heart right now....my work. And my friends there. Two weeks ago we found out that we lost our biggest account. It's a Big deal. VERY big deal. There was no warning, no one saw it coming, it just happened.
Within an hour of finding out, there was a round of "lay-offs". My very good friend "A", who started a few months after me, was the first to be let go. She had been there over six years! She is a single mom, worked full time, is going to school, and had just bought a brand new car! My dear friend daughter "T" was let go. She started working with her mom & me a while ago & is such a sweet & precious young lady. She has a heart of gold & will be greatly missed. Another young lady had just had her first baby girl. That's just to name a few, and there were many more. Yesterday, the lay-offs hit the sales team. There were a total of 14 sales people. The original list was to cut 6, but as of this moment, 3 are gone. Without warning. Quickly, quietly, it was over. There will be more I'm sure. Don't get me wrong. I am good at what I do. VERY good. And as long as they can give me something to sell, I can sell it. Still my heart hearts for those that lost their jobs, and for those thay may still.

And lastly, I am thankful. I am thankful for my friends & family, that's helping me get through this season in my life. But my real rock, my lifeline in all this is my husband. I am especially thankful for David. I am thankful that he knows me inside & out. He knows when I need to vent, to cry, to be afraid, or to avoid the topics all together, if just for a little while. I am thankful his shoulders are so big & strong, and that he can carry the weight of his world on them, and then mine too. We are in this together, and I know as long as I don't have to walk this walk alone, I can get through it....me