So it's possible that I may need to be on some type of medication - ha!  I keep telling David I think I'm losing my mind. And that he will take me seriously when I'm in a loony bin somewhere sitting in a rocking chair!  Seriously, maybe it's because I've hit my 40's. Maybe since I had that hysterectomy I'm going thru "the change" and just don't know it.  I mean, I DO wake up soaked in sweat every morning.  How's that for a hot flash? Do women have a 'mid life crisis'???

Today is one of those days.  I just don't - want - to - be - here! (At work, that is....not here HERE).  I almost feel irritable - or ANGRY. And I don't know why.  I would say it's burnout - but I took a vacation day on Wednesday. I didn't tell a soul about it except David & of course my work.  I got a lot of stuff done at "the cabin"...but I got a lot of relaxing & Keeping up with the Kardashian's done too!  So it can't be burnout!  I'm doing good in sales. We're having our annual Cancun contest, and I'm in first place.  I've already got 4 sales coming for my next paycheck, and I still have a week left to get more. What is WRONG with me?????

I only have 2 more hours left before the WEEKEND!  I'd be a lot more excited if mother nature would've stayed off the CRACK! It SNOWED last night & this morning here. In ARKANSAS - on May 3rd!!!! They've never recorded snow in AR in May before.  Basically it is now just wet - and cold.  It was 80 degrees here earlier this week! So yeah, the weather doesn't help.  We are supposed to go to a concert at The Amp tomorrow night. The Old Crow Medicine Show.  Uhhhh....yeah sure - I wanna sit outside in the freezing cold, wind & rain & listen to some music! ;)  I actually think they are considering rescheduling the concert - if so - then what will we do this weekend?  We usually work on the place. The deck. Something.  NOT with this weather.

I think  that's part of what's wrong with me.  When I am at work - I absolutely CAN NOT wait until it's time to go home.  Then, when we get home I think - WHY was I in such a hurry to get here? There's really nothing to do except fix dinner & watch TV (which I am so sick of).

WOW - that's a lot of complaining.  I have soooo much to be thankful for. I am so very blessed and I know it.  I have a husband who loves me more than life itself. Eddy & his little family are fine really. Brittni graduates college in December. I LOVE LOVE LOVE my grand babies. Our parents are all in good health. We have a roof over our heads, food in our bellys, good jobs. Friends that love us. Hmmmm....maybe it's not so bad after all!   me